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I need to write a message on here to whichever people run this website, so please note that this comment is intended directly for the owners of this website and not intended for the general public, so it would be better to delete this comment from public view. I know this guy named (pseudonymed) sojan from a website called deprogramwiki, and he is a pagan neo nazi who is also a survivor of satanic ritual abuse, and hes had this website deprogramwiki for about 10 years in an effort to try to help survivors of satanic ritual abuse. His specific pagan denomination, if I remember correctly was, ISKON (however, I’m not sure if that’s still his religious denomination anymore).
I don’t want to go into too much detail but I accidentally got into conflict with sojan for reasons that I ultimately feel like are not my fault and are not his fault either. I’m worried of explaining too many details of the conflict, I just feel extremely pessimistic and demoralized about the situation. I could email more information if that would be helpful, or maybe I could talk with one of the owners of this website on some encrypted app like matrix.
Maybe I’m too paranoid, but I don’t want to directly say that I support neonazism, because I’m paranoid about feds.
I think the problem of this situation could be put into 3 main categories:
Abrahamic religions versus Paganism
left wing politics versus right wing politics
people who believe that satanic ritual abuse is real, versus people who believe that satanic ritual abuse is fake
Basically, I think that people fit into the box of fitting all 3 criteria of both siding with paganism over abrahamism, right-wing politics over left-wing politics, and believing that satanic ritual abuse is real rather than a hoax, are extremely rare. I am one of these extremely rare people, and so is sojan, so the fact that I would end up getting into conflict with one of the people who is so similar to myself, is really horrifying.
I know there are a good number of people who are far-right wing and could be labeled neonazis or maybe would choose another label, and the question for me at this point isnt even whats morally the best, or whats the most true, but rather whats possible to just not experience abject pain. there is a high price to pay, for always doing whats morally right at all costs, and always seeking the truth at all costs (in other words for neonazism). overtime ive grown more sympathy for the normies who reject morality and truth for the sake of comfort, because i think everyone does this to some degree.
I dont think that I have been a victim of satanic ritual abuse, but maybe I would feel better if I had been through satanic ritual abuse, then at least i would have clear label to apply to myself and what ive experienced. I really dont know how to explain what ive experienced.
Back in 2016, when I was 14 years old, I decided that Paganism is better than abrahamism, (far)right wing is better than left wing, and the belief that satanic ritual abuse is real, rather than fake. Ever since then, I’ve been trying to pay attention both to whats happening in the SRA survivor spheres and far-right pagan spheres online.
I don’t relate to many of the far-right wing pagans/ Nietzchean Vitalists, I just dont agree with the popular versions of right-wing paganism. I think that focusing on going to heaven is more important than anything which can be enjoyed in this current world, but many Neiztchean Vitalists would dismiss that as being “Christcuckery” even though the major denominations of Hinduism and Buddhism actually also contain these alleged “Christcuck” aspects. Many Nietzchean Vitalists only care about money, power, fornication, etc.
I dont know to what extent it would be possible to revive some traditional form of white Paganism, it just seems unlikely that any project like that would be very successful. And the other forms of paganism are mainly believed in by non-white people, like Indians or East Asians. There isnt very much high quality right-wing, white paganism alive in the modern era, and I think that things are only going to be worse in the future.
And for basically all of recorded human history, the right-wing has been losing to the left wing. Therefor it seems the like the ostensibly “right wing” Neitzchean Vitalists who only care about winning are actually leftists. The left objectively has more money and power than the right, it always has and always will.
I’ve felt conflicted between my desire to be loyal to the white race, versus my desire to just simply adhere to a strict religious denomination, and stop having to always worry about defending the white race. In the past, I have seriously considered converting to certain fundamentalist Christian denominations, such as Russian Eastern Orthodox Old Calendarist Christianity, or Roman Catholic Sedevacantist Christianity.
Of course, my ideal utopia would be a world in which everyone is a genetically pure, genius-IQ, supermodel-phisiognomy chad or stacey with Nordic blonde hair and blue eyed, and where there’s a far-right wing government, no abrahamic religions, no jews, no non-whites, no feminism, no crime, no poverty, etc. But that’s not real life.
Of course I am pro-white, I want white ethnostates, I want to close the borders, I know for a fact that white genocide is happening. I am not some king of race-blind cuckservative optimist, its not that I dont think that stopping the white genocide is important, its just that I think there are a lot of aspects of the white genocide that need to be solved, and I only have limited time and energy to devote to any one aspect.
Leftism is like the hydra beast from Greek mythology, you cut off one of its head’s and two more grow back in its place. The many aspects of leftism including economic communism, cultural communism, homosexuality, transgenderism, no-fault divorce laws, feminism, Christianity, Islam, Judaism, atheist materialism, open borders policy, abortion policy, the corrupt criminal justice system, the corrupt medical system, cuckservatives who attack the far-right, etc, there just seem to be an infinite number of complex problems and no easy solutions.
Some people will say that “religion doesn’t matter- ONLY race matters! dont worry about religion, race will be your religion! no more brother wars, unite the white race!” I do see some value in that sentiment, I just feel like that is overly optimistic and over simplifies the world. Its true that white christians and white pagans need some type of political unity to defeat our common political enemies, but I dont think that a political alliance is a substitute for answering deeper theological questions.
I feel like many of the people in the far-right white pagan movement, are basically just like a type of sarabite monk, either that or are a Neitzchean Vitalist type who just focus on money, power and fornication. I feel like neither of these options are very good foundations to build a society on. Good societies are built on traditional monogamous marriages, were couples marry early, and have many children, and groups of monk and nuns in traditional religious orders. (rather than sarabite monks and nuns, who arent really united by any type of asceticism other than celibacy.)
I personally have decided that because ethnically asian people (Japanese, Chinese, South Koreans, Indians, Tibetans, etc) already have societies in which they have official monastic orders for monks and nuns, and have traditional marriage with young men and women having a decent number of children, I don’t really see the point in being against asian people. And I don’t mean I support asian immigration to white countries, i think asians should stay in asian countries. Generally, the asians who come to white countries are the worst, because they only come to take economic opportunities and political power from whites, while abandoning their responsibilities to their religion, their community, their children, their parents, their civilization. To quote vox day “immigration is worse than military invasion”, and I would say this is definitely true in the case of asians as well.
I just mean, it seems like 99% of members of the white race, are doomed to forever have their minds trapped in either Christianity or hedonistic atheist materialism. All major attempts in the past 100+ years to try to revive right-wing white paganism seem to have ended in failure. The paganism always either turns left wing, or it turns non-white, or it turns from paganism to hedonist materialism, etc, or some combination of those factors.
I feel like since whites like me, who genuinely want far-right white paganism, are so few in number, I feel like, why shouldn’t i just give up on the white race, and start caring about saving asian civilization instead of white/western civilization? White civilizations seemed like it has been doomed for most of recorded human history, it was doomed as soon as it apostacized from paganism and joined Christianity. I feel like this idea maybe means I am spiritually non-white/transracial. Because I just dont know how there can be real white paganism, it seem like if the choice is between either giving up being white or giving up being pagan, and I feel like if I have to make that choice, I would rather be give up being white, but remain a pagan.
To be clear: its not that I dont genuinely wish for a blonde blue eyed norse pagan white civilization to exist, dont get me wrong. Im just trying to think of what really is practical and pragmatic. What if the choice is that you can only save one: either save asian pagan society, or save white christian society, but you cant save both. I feel like many of the people who want white paganism havent seriously asked themselves this question.
I know that many people would see my decision to choose asian pagan society, over white christian society, as extremely evil and anti-white. But I feel like the world is a very depressing and brutal place that requires tough decisions like this. I’m not saying that asian pagan societies are perfect. I just feel like I don’t have a choice, and there isn’t any better option.
But to be honest, I still don’t feel entirely confident in my decision, and I think I’m always going to feel guilty for not doing enough, whether that means not doing enough to help the white race, or not doing enough to adhere to any of my other numerous moral obligations.
I’m open to discussing this topic further via email, but I assume I probably wont get a reply to this comment since I would assume the admins of this website are too busy, and I have too much of a pessimistic worldview. I probably sound like an anti-white troll or fed.
disclaimer: sorry for typos, i didnt have enough energy to properly edit the comment
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(January 28, 2025 - 4:30 am)I need to write a message on here to whichever people run this website, so please note that this comment is intended directly for the owners of this website and not intended for the general public, so it would be better to delete this comment from public view. I know this guy named (pseudonymed) sojan from a website called deprogramwiki, and he is a pagan neo nazi who is also a survivor of satanic ritual abuse, and hes had this website deprogramwiki for about 10 years in an effort to try to help survivors of satanic ritual abuse. His specific pagan denomination, if I remember correctly was, ISKON (however, I’m not sure if that’s still his religious denomination anymore).
I don’t want to go into too much detail but I accidentally got into conflict with sojan for reasons that I ultimately feel like are not my fault and are not his fault either. I’m worried of explaining too many details of the conflict, I just feel extremely pessimistic and demoralized about the situation. I could email more information if that would be helpful, or maybe I could talk with one of the owners of this website on some encrypted app like matrix.
Maybe I’m too paranoid, but I don’t want to directly say that I support neonazism, because I’m paranoid about feds.
I think the problem of this situation could be put into 3 main categories:
Abrahamic religions versus Paganism
left wing politics versus right wing politics
people who believe that satanic ritual abuse is real, versus people who believe that satanic ritual abuse is fake
Basically, I think that people fit into the box of fitting all 3 criteria of both siding with paganism over abrahamism, right-wing politics over left-wing politics, and believing that satanic ritual abuse is real rather than a hoax, are extremely rare. I am one of these extremely rare people, and so is sojan, so the fact that I would end up getting into conflict with one of the people who is so similar to myself, is really horrifying.
I know there are a good number of people who are far-right wing and could be labeled neonazis or maybe would choose another label, and the question for me at this point isnt even whats morally the best, or whats the most true, but rather whats possible to just not experience abject pain. there is a high price to pay, for always doing whats morally right at all costs, and always seeking the truth at all costs (in other words for neonazism). overtime ive grown more sympathy for the normies who reject morality and truth for the sake of comfort, because i think everyone does this to some degree.
I dont think that I have been a victim of satanic ritual abuse, but maybe I would feel better if I had been through satanic ritual abuse, then at least i would have clear label to apply to myself and what ive experienced. I really dont know how to explain what ive experienced.
Back in 2016, when I was 14 years old, I decided that Paganism is better than abrahamism, (far)right wing is better than left wing, and the belief that satanic ritual abuse is real, rather than fake. Ever since then, I’ve been trying to pay attention both to whats happening in the SRA survivor spheres and far-right pagan spheres online.
I don’t relate to many of the far-right wing pagans/ Nietzchean Vitalists, I just dont agree with the popular versions of right-wing paganism. I think that focusing on going to heaven is more important than anything which can be enjoyed in this current world, but many Neiztchean Vitalists would dismiss that as being “Christcuckery” even though the major denominations of Hinduism and Buddhism actually also contain these alleged “Christcuck” aspects. Many Nietzchean Vitalists only care about money, power, fornication, etc.
I dont know to what extent it would be possible to revive some traditional form of white Paganism, it just seems unlikely that any project like that would be very successful. And the other forms of paganism are mainly believed in by non-white people, like Indians or East Asians. There isnt very much high quality right-wing, white paganism alive in the modern era, and I think that things are only going to be worse in the future.
And for basically all of recorded human history, the right-wing has been losing to the left wing. Therefor it seems the like the ostensibly “right wing” Neitzchean Vitalists who only care about winning are actually leftists. The left objectively has more money and power than the right, it always has and always will.
I’ve felt conflicted between my desire to be loyal to the white race, versus my desire to just simply adhere to a strict religious denomination, and stop having to always worry about defending the white race. In the past, I have seriously considered converting to certain fundamentalist Christian denominations, such as Russian Eastern Orthodox Old Calendarist Christianity, or Roman Catholic Sedevacantist Christianity.
Of course, my ideal utopia would be a world in which everyone is a genetically pure, genius-IQ, supermodel-phisiognomy chad or stacey with Nordic blonde hair and blue eyed, and where there’s a far-right wing government, no abrahamic religions, no jews, no non-whites, no feminism, no crime, no poverty, etc. But that’s not real life.
Of course I am pro-white, I want white ethnostates, I want to close the borders, I know for a fact that white genocide is happening. I am not some king of race-blind cuckservative optimist, its not that I dont think that stopping the white genocide is important, its just that I think there are a lot of aspects of the white genocide that need to be solved, and I only have limited time and energy to devote to any one aspect.
Leftism is like the hydra beast from Greek mythology, you cut off one of its head’s and two more grow back in its place. The many aspects of leftism including economic communism, cultural communism, homosexuality, transgenderism, no-fault divorce laws, feminism, Christianity, Islam, Judaism, atheist materialism, open borders policy, abortion policy, the corrupt criminal justice system, the corrupt medical system, cuckservatives who attack the far-right, etc, there just seem to be an infinite number of complex problems and no easy solutions.
Some people will say that “religion doesn’t matter- ONLY race matters! dont worry about religion, race will be your religion! no more brother wars, unite the white race!” I do see some value in that sentiment, I just feel like that is overly optimistic and over simplifies the world. Its true that white christians and white pagans need some type of political unity to defeat our common political enemies, but I dont think that a political alliance is a substitute for answering deeper theological questions.
I feel like many of the people in the far-right white pagan movement, are basically just like a type of sarabite monk, either that or are a Neitzchean Vitalist type who just focus on money, power and fornication. I feel like neither of these options are very good foundations to build a society on. Good societies are built on traditional monogamous marriages, were couples marry early, and have many children, and groups of monk and nuns in traditional religious orders. (rather than sarabite monks and nuns, who arent really united by any type of asceticism other than celibacy.)
I personally have decided that because ethnically asian people (Japanese, Chinese, South Koreans, Indians, Tibetans, etc) already have societies in which they have official monastic orders for monks and nuns, and have traditional marriage with young men and women having a decent number of children, I don’t really see the point in being against asian people. And I don’t mean I support asian immigration to white countries, i think asians should stay in asian countries. Generally, the asians who come to white countries are the worst, because they only come to take economic opportunities and political power from whites, while abandoning their responsibilities to their religion, their community, their children, their parents, their civilization. To quote vox day “immigration is worse than military invasion”, and I would say this is definitely true in the case of asians as well.
I just mean, it seems like 99% of members of the white race, are doomed to forever have their minds trapped in either Christianity or hedonistic atheist materialism. All major attempts in the past 100+ years to try to revive right-wing white paganism seem to have ended in failure. The paganism always either turns left wing, or it turns non-white, or it turns from paganism to hedonist materialism, etc, or some combination of those factors.
I feel like since whites like me, who genuinely want far-right white paganism, are so few in number, I feel like, why shouldn’t i just give up on the white race, and start caring about saving asian civilization instead of white/western civilization? White civilizations seemed like it has been doomed for most of recorded human history, it was doomed as soon as it apostacized from paganism and joined Christianity. I feel like this idea maybe means I am spiritually non-white/transracial. Because I just dont know how there can be real white paganism, it seem like if the choice is between either giving up being white or giving up being pagan, and I feel like if I have to make that choice, I would rather be give up being white, but remain a pagan.
To be clear: its not that I dont genuinely wish for a blonde blue eyed norse pagan white civilization to exist, dont get me wrong. Im just trying to think of what really is practical and pragmatic. What if the choice is that you can only save one: either save asian pagan society, or save white christian society, but you cant save both. I feel like many of the people who want white paganism havent seriously asked themselves this question.
I know that many people would see my decision to choose asian pagan society, over white christian society, as extremely evil and anti-white. But I feel like the world is a very depressing and brutal place that requires tough decisions like this. I’m not saying that asian pagan societies are perfect. I just feel like I don’t have a choice, and there isn’t any better option.
But to be honest, I still don’t feel entirely confident in my decision, and I think I’m always going to feel guilty for not doing enough, whether that means not doing enough to help the white race, or not doing enough to adhere to any of my other numerous moral obligations.
I’m open to discussing this topic further via email, but I assume I probably wont get a reply to this comment since I would assume the admins of this website are too busy, and I have too much of a pessimistic worldview. I probably sound like an anti-white troll or fed.
disclaimer: sorry for typos, i didnt have enough energy to properly edit the comment
Joey
(April 27, 2025 - 3:56 pm)Dear bodhi you are an old friend of mine and I miss you dearly I would really love to speak to you somehow some way soon and reconnect.
Kenneth Michael Wolf
(May 11, 2025 - 7:15 pm)Bodhi, Do you have an instagram or social media to contact you? Much love from old friend